“Without continual and progress, such words as improvement, achievement, and success have no meaning.”- Benjamin Franklin
To my wonderful subscribers,
I’m killing This is Your Mind Ranting… at least in its current form.
This grotesque baby of mine started almost 2 years ago. I don’t recognize what this newsletter has become and now it sucks.
Let me repeat that: this project/idea/random collection of thoughts I worked on week after week, losing precious creative brain cells and sleeping, wondering if I put forth my best effort, sucks ass.
What can be more soul-crushing than determining your writing just flat-out sucks?
It’s one thing for a quiet netizen to call your work drivel, but to sit down and re-read your words and realize the following: “Holy cow, this is bad. I can’t believe I was forcing my subscribers to read this”, is another.
This realization has hit me many times, but I’ve failed to fix it over and over again.
Now that we are in 2024 and writers are having to “compete” with some of the most advanced AI assistants and other writers, I’ve got to stop writing crap. It’s time to make some damn sense.
I promised you all in 2023 to write better material and I’ve failed you. Miserably.
Most of the rants every Friday were nothing more than a grown man child pouting about the world. I didn’t feel accomplished. I wasn’t writing… I was just stressing every Thursday night to edit. To tell myself that I was doing well, keeping this writing habit up.
The ironic part about having a huge portfolio that hits on multiple subjects, most of it will suck. Specialization is not exclusive to other animals, and it certainly applies to writing.
I don’t want to keep failing you and any other degenerates who find this newsletter on the Substack Recommendations list. This is supposed to be the newsletter I know now my work isn’t great, but it will get better.
“Only bad writers think that their work is really good.”- Anne Enright
I’ll blame this constant failure on the festering monster that is my chronic laziness and every minute comparison I make about my work against other writers with a gazillion subscribers.
There will be less fluff and more focused rants to follow in the coming weeks and the rest of the year.
Here is my 2nd opportunity to keep you degenerates coming for the rants. I hope to not let you down.
This is the last whiny, rushed, and self-centered post for some time.
I don’t to leave you without a rant, so here are a few rambling thoughts to laugh at:
I’m not the biggest fan of vegetable-based foods, but Taco Bell’s Fiesta Veggie Burritos are delicious. Black beans, seasoned rice, red tortilla strips, creamy chipotle sauce, reduced-fat sour cream, a three-cheese blend, tomatoes, and guacamole all wrapped in a cute package made for a guilty pleasure for those late-night cravings and a post-workout savior when protein drinks were getting too boring. As its #1 fan, you could imagine what a child I was driving away from the drive-thru line when the veggie burrito was retired. I will refuse to eat at that fake ass Mexican restaurant… for a month.
Does anyone else experience a mind blow when they see the origin of a meme on TV? There’s a Matthew McConaughey meme (pictured above) where he resembles a crack head that has a soft spot in my heart whenever I stumble upon during my daily doom scrolling. I found out this meme is from HBO’s True Detective’s 4th episode. I lost my ever loving mind when I connected the dots. The show is good too.
That’s all I have for this week. Take care of yourselves and until next time.
Adios.
— Crush Sanchez
I have a busy schedule, but when I could...your rants allowed me some relief in my week. I enjoyed your newsletter and hope you continue to write. It made me smile! Good luck to you and your next adventure! You will be missed.
It's a tough business, man. I hope you get into a groove and feel happy with your work, I'll be reading!